Ames is a special little boy. I've known this even before I took a pregnancy test and knew for sure that he existed. It was almost exactly one year ago when I was out on a run, a few days before I took a pregnancy test, already knowing I was pregnant. I felt guilty because instead of pure joy, I was scared. I was overwhelmed with many things, most of all...was I ready to be a Mom? Could I be a good Mom? As I ran and thought about all of the overwhelming things I was suddenly overcome with peace. I even felt and heard a small whisper that everything was going to be alright, that I would be alright. I knew that it was Ames reassuring me that things were going to be okay. I have had many tender moments throughout my pregnancy and since he has been born. When I have been overwhelmed, feeling like I can't go on, I've stared into his big blue eyes and that same little message is whispered to me..."things are going to be okay. You are going to be okay. You are doing a good job. I love you, Mom." These moments are always accompanied by the sweetest smile I have ever seen.
Already I know that Ames is going to be someone who brings great peace to others. His name actually means friend; I know that he is definitely going to be a great friend to all those he comes in contact with. He is going to be a laid back and just a happy guy. He also is going to be very smart. I have no doubt in my mind that he is going to be like his Dad - someone who is so curious about things that they end up becoming very knowledgeable because they research and learn as much as they can. I already see lots of Nate's traits in Ames and it warms my heart. I would love so much if he became as great as a man as his Dad. Maybe this is just my wishful thinking, but I think he will become a great athlete too. I can already picture him racing around as a little tot and just enjoying all types of sports. I would love if he followed in his Mom's and Dad's shoes and became a runner, but I'll be happy with whatever he chooses to do.
Ames has a bright future. He is going to be a force of good in our scary world. He will be a friend and a comfort to many people. I know that he will have the ability to succeed at whatever he chooses - and I hope he chooses something! :)
I am so very blessed to be the Mother to this sweet little guy. I sincerely hope I can do all I can to insure his success in life. As much as he needs me for his physical needs, I am the one who needs him. It's kinda crazy to feel so dependent on a 4 month old, but it is true none-the-less.
I love you, Ames! I am so excited to see what the future has in store for you.
